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May 2nd, 2005
10:36 pm - Why does it have to be this way?
Today was the most fucked up day I think i've ever had to endure. I'm not gonna say anything but i'll say enough.
why does it have to be this way? I'm not the girl I want to be. I'm not nice. I don't believe in myself. I can't even get what I want in Life. I don't mean to sound like a drama queen but damn... I just don't understand-- I can doll myself up, be as nice as possible, be sweet and what not but it'll never make a difference. NObody ever takes me seriously. I just dont get the fact of how im like in the shadow of everyone else. I'm not the cute girl, the kool one, the sweet one that everyone likes. I'm just a LindsAy and I hate IT! I wish I could be what everyone wanted me to be and more but I cant.
I'd Be Perfect.
by me.
People tell me that I'd be perfect....
If only I were someone else
All these transformation comments
Are hazordous to my health
Its no wonder that I hate me
Nobody likes me anyway
I guess I'm part of the crowd now
As I slowly fade away...
Why do I have to be like society?
What makes me have to do what you do
I only want someone to love me
but you only would If I were like you...
I refuse to burry myself with trend
I won't be like someone else is
Why do I have to go through hell
Why do I always have to do this
Nobody stands up for individuality
They only fit right into the name
There's a group of people that are "different"
Funny how they're all the same
Well I don't like conformity
So I guess I'll just be alone
I'd rather be by myself
Then in society, and be owned
Owned by someone popular
To give in to every label
Preps, Thugs, and Skaters
I guess I'm just not able
So I'll fall behind the crowd
Hide behind the walls
Try hard not to take notice
As I wonder through these halls
I'll watch all the people
People Who once lived for themselves
Now they're as just as the book
That lies dusty on the top shelf
All these comments of society
So hazardous to my health.
They tell me I'd be perfect...
If only I were someone else
Current Mood: ![[mood icon]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/mood/classic/sad.gif) uncomfortable
Current Music: Winter Solstice- The Courtesy Bow
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April 29th, 2005
10:36 pm - YO. damn, today was a fantasmic day to the fourth power!
Dude, today was a fucking hella badass day! umm.. after school, Renee and I were gonna go to some show at Equal Eyes but we later found out that it was The Underground. OOPS! Well we made up for that real FAST! Her G-MA dropped us off at Moore Plaza/ Shopping Center. And we walked to McDonalds, then we went to Target and fucked around. It was soo great! Like fo' real! Next time we need more people. mmm hmmm. Then We bought a High Times Mag. from Half Price Books. Its like Fucking PERFECT CONDITION! hmmm.. Amazing I must declare.
"how i wish, how i wish you were here. We're just two lost souls swimming in a fish bowl, year after year, Running over the same old ground. What have we found? The samn old fears. Wish you were here."-- Pink Floyd. Wish You Were Here.
Peace. Muchos Love. <33 LindsAy K
Current Mood: ![[mood icon]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/mood/classic/energetic.gif) bouncy
Current Music: Hawthorne Heights-- Dissolve and Decay
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April 26th, 2005
07:18 am
Today was an awkward day. When I got home from school, I almost choked on a spoonful of ice cream! how absurd is that? I don't know, it was a TOTAL freak accident! hmm... I 'm quite frustrated at the thought that my friends aren't really my friends at all. I don't feel comfortable around them anymore, it's like we are just acquaintances all over again. I just don't understand. hmmm.. All I need to do is give it time to unfold itself, so the truth will come out.
Current Mood: ![[mood icon]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/mood/classic/shock.gif) distressed
Current Music: Sublime- Date Rape
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